|February 2019 Calendar Collage|
Joy is here. Emotions are here. Trust is here. We are here. Sometimes shame is here.
I was at work when shame took over. It moved in with the rush of over-explaining a mistake to my boss. I noticed it right away and stopped. She noticed it too and said "it's okay, it's okay." "Thanks Mom! I joked."
The word "gutted" swirled around as I raced back to my desk.
Safely back in my cozy cubby cubicle, I acknowledged 'shame is here.' Then I listened. 'How do I know?' Well, my face is warm, my energy is in my chest. My mind is picturing tortilla chips.
Shame: a hulking tangled blob that makes me want to eat.
Instead I breath and create space.
Instead, I walk, call my sponsor, then a trusted friend and leave messages. "I'm really excited! I made space for shame instead of chips."
Back at work, a healthy snack grounded my energy while I gazed at my February collage.
I noticed the swirling, tangle of the Chihuly blown-glass image. My eye was then drawn to the four people in the bottom right. The caption reads "The Spaces team..."
Space. This is what collage teaches: how to create internal space for our never-ending expansion.
The art of collage is listening.
What is your embodied heart saying?
Interested in having a collage party with your pals?
To learn about the connection between emotions and food check out the book End Emotional Eating by Jennifer Taitz.